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"Life isn't bliss, life is just this, it's living..."
" 'Cause I can't make you love me If you don't " 
30th-Aug-2011 04:09 pm
I made this banner while I was thinking about a discussion I had with [livejournal.com profile] 2maggie2. She believes that Buffy didn't love Spike and that she only felt for him. What exactly? Big feeling which are not love, though. I, on the other hand believe exactly the opposite but I'm afraid that Spike probably won't agree with me. Here's a banner entirely from his perspective. Plus George Michael's song might not be my favourite but it screams Spike to me. Enjoy!


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pamsblau: (Tension)
Twinkles 
30th-Aug-2011 01:28 pm (UTC)
Gret banner, Pam !!!
31st-Aug-2011 09:01 am (UTC)
Thank you, sweetie!♥
30th-Aug-2011 01:29 pm (UTC)
Just really GREAT !!!
30th-Aug-2011 01:44 pm (UTC)
angelus2hot: (Spike/Buffy love and hate)
Beautiful!

31st-Aug-2011 09:01 am (UTC)
Thank you♥
30th-Aug-2011 03:12 pm (UTC)
Pretty colors. :))
31st-Aug-2011 09:02 am (UTC)
Thank you, hun♥
30th-Aug-2011 03:41 pm (UTC)
Great banner, Pami! And I'm 100 % sure that Buffy was in love with Spike when she told him "I love you" And I still think that she loves him more than Angel and Spuffy will be the end game.
31st-Aug-2011 09:03 am (UTC)
Thank you, hun! Yes, I believe she was. I just wanna see these two happy and together!!!
30th-Aug-2011 04:51 pm (UTC)
Amazing. :)
31st-Aug-2011 09:03 am (UTC)
Thank you♥
30th-Aug-2011 05:21 pm (UTC)
A very lovely banner. And yes, I think the song would speak to Spike. It is very much how he felt. He didn't feel he was worthy of her love. But I believe Buffy loved Spike. As Cassie in season seven's "Help" told Spike, " She'll tell you. Someday she'll tell you."

I wrote this drabble called " Freudian Slip" based on a scene in "First Date":

It started out so innocent.

Just girlfriends talking girl talk while folding laundry.

Willow just said it was good that Buffy had a date with Principal Wood.

It was good she was moving on.

“Why does everybody in this house think I'm still in love with Spike?”

Buffy freezes as soon as it slips out.

Willow’s eyes go wide.

Thankfully, Xander distracts Willow with news about his own date.

Buffy can’t believe she said that.

It was a slip. That’s all it was.

She tells herself that, but she saw Willow’s reaction to it.

She isn’t. She never was. Crap.
31st-Aug-2011 09:06 am (UTC)
Thank you for the lovely words!♥

Yes, I do think that's what Cassie was saying as well.

This drabble is absolutely lovely! It just screams Buffy to me.
I just want to see these two together again!*whimpers*
30th-Aug-2011 05:48 pm (UTC)
Poor Spike - always second best ... Truly "Love's Bitch"

Gorgeous work - I love the richness of the colours.
31st-Aug-2011 09:07 am (UTC)
Thank you, honey!♥
30th-Aug-2011 09:31 pm (UTC)
While I'm not inclined to believe that Buffy was ever in love with Spike, I can almost see how some people think she was. (Yes I still ship Spuffy more than Bangel.) I think that Spike after he got his soul was better for her than Angel ever was. I just think she was crippled because she still thought of Angel as the end game match for her and she couldn't let herself feel beyond that. (That and she was still getting over the AR.)

This banner is so completely how I see them and how I know Spike would see them too. (THE BANNER IS GORGEOUS!!!!!)

If you've kept up with the comics... things may have changed for her about Angel, we'll just have to wait and see about Spike.

*hugs and love*
31st-Aug-2011 09:12 am (UTC)
Thank you so much, hun!♥

Yes, I understand why Spike feels the way he does but I still think he should have at least given her a phone call or something. His insecurities hurt her a lot more than they hurt him IMO.

Things changed A LOT for Angel. He made a helluva lot bad choices. He pushed and manipulated Buffy, he killed her girls, he tortured her and put her through hell for what? For the greater good? I don't think so.

*huggles*
30th-Aug-2011 10:35 pm (UTC)
ext_7259: (Default)
Lovely banner!
31st-Aug-2011 09:13 am (UTC)
Thank you!♥
31st-Aug-2011 01:24 am (UTC)
Oooh, pretty!
31st-Aug-2011 09:13 am (UTC)
Thanks, hun!
31st-Aug-2011 01:29 am (UTC)
I'll never understand what people mean by "big feeling which is not love". Huh. What is love, then?

Anyway. Thinking from Spike's perspective always leaves me halfway between wanting to give him a hug and wanting to punch him on the nose for being an idiot.
31st-Aug-2011 09:18 am (UTC)
Believe me when I say I don't understand that either. What does " I feel for someone." even mean? What do you feel? Love, like, hate etc.

Yeah. Ditto. I feel sorry for him but not calling Buffy was IMO one of the stupedest things he's ever done.

ETA: Her eyes say it all!